I’m out of game for a little time… I have to settle down, start worrying a little more about myself and find the way through this moment, so I can finally get back on track. Sorry for not updating my blog, sorry for not posting… I just really didn’t know what to write and still kind of don’t.
But I promise I’ll be back soon again with more motivation and having done a big step!
Hey out there… First of all I’m really really sorry that I haven’t posted for so long! I wasn’t home for about three weeks and I had an amazing holiday in Colombia, my homeland. We had a really nice time over there and even though I ate a little of this and that when I did my first weigh-in being back home it was just about 1,5kg more, which I thought was pretty good!
As soon as I came back I lost my way… I started eating and eating and eating. Winter hit me on the face with its -13°… wasn’t used to it, after two weeks between 20 and 35 degrees. One week later I put on 2kg and now on my last weigh-in I was on 114,5kg!!! This is just sooooooooooo crazy!!! I was ashamed of posting and all the time I kept on thinking that I have to stop it… but I just couldn’t… can’t! It has been hard… every time I feel like eating chocolate I think I shouldn’t but there I go and put it in my mouth. I have been eating a lot of it and it just has to stop!
This week I have been looking through the internet for some medical help or something like that and today I found a doctor that is specialized on adipositas and overweight. I think this is a moment were I need some help, I don’t see myself capable of doing this alone. I feel pretty bad because I DO know that I’m just hurting myself, that I’m hurting myself and all those things… but I don’t know how to keep on walking this path.
I’ll be doing my next weigh-in on saturday and don’t be surprised if it is more :S
I have been blogging for a little longer than a year now and on that year I lost about 10kg… but now I’ve regained about 5… I do feel pretty bad…
It’s been a very nice time over here 😉 but I still didn’t have the chance to get on a scale! I’m kind of afraid about next Saturday, because then I’ll be back as there will absolutely be no excuses and I’ll have my scale just next to me.
I’ve had great food:
But on Wednesday I ate something that made me throw up and feel pretty bad the whole night! Since then I can’t eat nearly nothing because my stomach feels weird and I feel full immediately! Yesterday we had a BBQ and I could only eat one potato and that was about it :S
Couldn’t do my weigh-in today! Think it’s really not gonna work up to the second January week…
I’m trying not to eat that much, not too many calories an fat, but once in a while I’m having treats and nice food. Hubby and I have been visiting a lot of family lately and his mum made this for his b-day:
Wish you all have a merry little christmas tomorrow 😉 hope I can post soon again!
Well o well… As I thought this week turned out to be good 😉 I lost 500gr!
Why is it that when we hear such a number we think it’s little?!? That’s why I always imagine my losses and gains comparing them to butter packages. So this week I lost 2 packages of butter 😉 and that is very good!
On Thursday I baked gingerbread cupcakes for school and they turned out delicious. The best was the buttercream (made out of butter, choco pudding and some gingerbread spices)!
Check them out, even though the pics are not as good as they really looked 😉
Now I’m getting ready for going to wok! Have a nice second advent tomorrow and enjoy Christmas time!!!
I woke up this morning and taraaaaaaa, everything was white! I LOVE snow 😀 So I woke up, had a nice breakfast and afterwards I went to the supermarket to get some things (because it’s baking day for school again and I’m baking ginger bread cupcakes… pics will follow later!) and to enjoy the cold snowy weather!
Here some impressions:
This week I’ve been doing pretty good, I hope on saturday it turns out to be like this too hehehe!